So, if you guys don't know yet, I am now doing my diploma at UiTM Arau, Perlis. In pure science fyi. omg what am i talking about? ingat sekolah ke "pure science" hahaha. Diploma In Science. Yup! JUST SCIENCE. I still have to take BIOLOGY, CHEMISTRY and PHYSICS. And to make it sounds worst, CALCULUS is also on the subjects list. Can you imagine that? And i have heard about some people keep saying that this fking course is easy peasy lemon squeezy? Hahahaha! Hell no! Well at least it is easy for genius like them. But not me :( i have been struggling a lot for these past two years. Even though bukanlah susah mana pun sebenarnya, but for me yang agak tak berapa nak genius plus tak berapa nak rajin ni, its required a lot of effort.
To be very honest, i hate myself for not being able to handle everything as the way i wanted. I hate myself for disappointing my parents over and over again. Tak cukup dengan spm yang teruk tu, in university pun still being such a jerk. When will you actually repay them huh Farhana? Don't you realize that you are their last hope? I mean,*sigh.. i don't know. Giving up is the only thing that i can think right now. BUT OF COURSE I WILL NEVER GIVE UP JUST LIKE THAT! NEVER!
Okay! Lets move on! :') So.. let me tell you a bit about my college life so far. From all four semester that i have been through, the forth semester is the best! Why? Because all of my classmates is my friends. i mean, there is no stranger. Bukan la stranger macam mana, i know them for quite long i guess. and you know what, total semua for my class (fixed member) are only 8. yup! At first we were so afraid that our class will be dismissed or whatsoever but luckily, it was not. sebab banyak yang menumpang. So i am basically have different classmate for different subject. pretty cool huh? lel.
For my first three semester was just ok lah.. Nothing much that i can share because i don't really remember a lot. i am not sure why. Is it that bad? Sampai i don't want to remember? hahaha i hope not. I met a lot of new friends. Well.. as you guys know.. your girl is not that good at making friends kan. but I did it. Now I have plenty of friends. kah kah kah. sounds so riak. I think I was good at starting the conversation but not good enough to maintain it, yet. I'll improve it, I promise :)
Oh ya! Lupa nak cerita about the biology path and physics path. When the forth semester begin, we are actually in the new cohort where they divided us into two major which is BIOLOGY and PHYSICS. at first, i was thinking that maybe i will do good if i choose physics. BUT, it is not as easy as i thought. nasib baik la aku tak ambik physics. it is so freaking scary. biology is much more easier i think. hmm. you just have to read. memorized. read. memorized. read. read. read everything. and memorized. hahaha. meanwhile physics, you have understand it, memorized the formula, understand the formula, understand the theory, understand the things that you learned, yup, you have to pretty much understand everything. plus memorizing the formulas. LOTS of formula. So.... apa tah nak cakap tadi.. ha! I'm glad that I choose biology. It is not that boring though.. quite fun when we have to learn about human mechanism. i honestly don't really like the biodiversity subject. even though that one lagi senang nak score, not so interesting la. i am more into human body instead of plants and animals.
Okay lah.. tired already.. i will be active during this two months of semester break, maybe, i hope so. will post some photos of me and my classmates in my next post. maybe if i rajin, i will make a throwback from my first until forth semester. Tengok lah nanti macam mana. lulz. k, see you next time. bye~! :)
